Is your “Why” bigger than your “Eye”?
Maybe it’s the calluses forming on my hands. Maybe it’s the unexplainable soreness in muscles I never knew existed. Maybe it’s the dread I feel right before I get on the foam roller. Whatever it is, I’ve been wondering what’s the point of this all? Sure, I’ve been blessed with 3 months of CrossFit training that has already changed my life. But in the end, what’s the overall purpose of this? Maybe it’s because I think a lot (which can be a good thing but also a bad thing especially during a WOD).
Nevertheless, I’ve since realized that I have some kind of “exercise ADD” – I constantly need variety and change in my workouts. I guess that’s why CrossFit suits me so well. Even so, I wonder if I’ll remain committed to CrossFit once my 3 months are over? Even with the amazing benefits I’ve seen from doing CrossFit thus far, will I keep going when the time comes to commit? What’s my reason for pushing myself to the limit each day at CrossFit Salus?
It seems when I am motivated, there is really very little that can stop me. But it’s getting to that point of motivation, that point of complete dedication that I struggle with. I have to REALLY want something to be dedicated to it. For example, the last 7 years of my fitness journey have been riddled with sporadic moments of dedication to my body followed by seasons of inactivity. Was it laziness? No, I feel like it always came down to motivation. The “why” of it all.
I’ve concluded that to stick to something, my “why” needs to be bigger than my “eye”. Basically the reason “why” I am doing this needs to be bigger and deeper than simply what my eye sees and desires for myself. Sure, I want to get in better shape…sure I want to feel better about myself physically. I think that represents the “eye” – what I see and what others see on the outside. For some, that is enough motivation. For me it’s not. Many times in my life, I have set “eye” goals – get in shape for a sporting event, get in shape for vacation, get in shape to fit into my bathing suit. Once I reached them, my motivation slowly withered away until the next “eye” goal. Fluctuating between fitness goals definitely wasn’t good for my health and my body. I’m finally at a point where my reasons for working out have to be bigger than what my “eye” desires.
After some deep thinking (surprise, surprise), I believe I’ve discovered my “why”:
Overall, I know l’m here for a God-given purpose that I must fulfill. My body is the vehicle I will use to get there but without my health, that’s impossible. Therefore, I need to continually take care of my body in order to fulfill my purpose in life.
CrossFit has helped with this because it forces me to push myself to the limit and confront the things I’m not good at. From doing so, I not only improve but I learn that I don’t have to fear the unknown. In essence, I become mentally tougher and physically stronger at the same time. With every challenging WOD, I evolve into a stronger, healthier and happier version of myself that is more focused and better equipped to carry out my God-given purpose.
Now when I consider “why” I continue to do CrossFit, I realize it has nothing to do with what my eye sees. For the first time, I think I’m finally on the right path in this fitness journey. (#KingdomFit)
Out of curiosity – I asked some of the members and coaches at my box what their “why” was. I was motivated by their responses. All of them had a “why” and purpose for doing CrossFit that was deeper and more inspirational than just physically looking better. Thanks Dina, Angela, Gino, Michelle and Patrick for sharing!